Today I have discovered something: I do not want to go to law school and become a lawyer.

While disappointing (it kinda sounded like fun), I think it is a positive step forward in my life. I have struggled with finding a career that seemed to match my interests and future goals. My main issue is this: at what level do your hobbies and interests need to play into your job? Is it way enough to work a job for the cash and live on the side? It seems that if this is the case there is a lot of time spent not living. Or can I find happiness in a job well done regardless of the type of work; is that satisfaction enough?

Here's what I know:
1. I ~less than three~ learning. My mind has to be intrigued and occupied.
2. My life must be organized and my brain functions analytically.
3. I need to be able to support myself; I do not like to rely on others for basic needs.
4. I want to have a family in the next ten years. Big window, I know.
5. I have no idea what I want to do with a career. So far I am checking things off that I don't want to do which I feel is a step in the right direction, even if I don't know where that leads.

On other job fronts...
I let the deadline go buy for the teaching assistant in Spain dealio. I felt that I couldn't commit to a year overseas that goes from Jan to Jan (assuming of course that they would pick me). I think it would be difficult for me to find a job that would allow either for that temporary state of employment until departure, or for a lapse of a year and come back. Maybe there is a different program that I could work with, but I'm not sure that I'm cut out for teaching. I don't know that I could deal well with apathetic students and there are always apathetic students.

Until I come up with a better plan the path of least resistence will likely win out in the end. This path seems unfavorable whenever I am dealing with a jerk manager/co-worker or am not working. There will always be at least one jerk so that isn't the industry's fault. I don't think biotech has a higher proportions of jerks than any other arena. And being unemployed without another source of money is depressing and lame. Maybe the job isn't the problem.

ponder, ponder, ponder

Ok, ok, I'm posting!

Given the current circumstances I don't have a lot to post about. I am in the middle of packing to move in with some friends. I'm actually excited about it because we all really like to cook. Should be interesting what we come up with. But moving is a horrid chore and I hate it. The new home has a rat (cute pet, not vermin) so miss Sugar has to go on holiday to mom's. I think she likes it because she can harass Cleo and has more room to be lazy.

I've got two weddings coming up in May and one in July so that is exciting. Unfortunately both the May weddings are on the same weekend so I wll be driving all over the state to get to both of them. Also coming up I have tickets to see Cirque du Soleil!!! I've always wanted to go to a show and Ticketmaster was having a special so I got discounted tickets for me and my friends!!! I want to get all dressed up even if it is supposed to be a casual thing. I have this fun, peacock turquoise colored dress (yes, that color somehow does work for me) that I think I'll wear. So fun!

I learned about tire pressure the other day. Seems you are supposed to check it once a month. I think I've only checked mine once or twice in my life and that was on my other car. I think what must have happened is that the people that changed my oil checked and filled for me. That hasn't happened on my latest car and it turns out that the air pressure was so low that I wore the sidewalls bare on the front two. Oops. So I bought a gauge thingy (did you know you can spell it gage too?) and looked up the correct pressure, 30 psi. Mine registered ~19. Oops. I did find a nice man at the gas station though. I asked if I could buy something to get cash back for quarters for the machine (I never carry cash and you aren't supposed to drive more than two miles so the air in the tires is cold) and he just went out, reset the compressor and filled them for me! Seems there are some nice people still out there. :)

So then I got new tires. $150 and that was considered cheap!!! And I drive away and the alignment is all screwy. If the wheel is straight the car goes left. Grrrr. They didn't have time to deal with it then so I have to go back! I was trying to be nice and throw some business at my mechanic from where we grew up (I was in the area anyway that day) and now I have to drive ~100 miles round trip, again. I am soooo not paying for a re-alignment.

So that's the latest. Still looking for a dream job. I think NC sounds nice though. I just won't go outside in summer. :D

Babies galore!

Sissy brings in baby number three and now my step-sister is due in October! Glad they're taking the pressure off me for this type of performance. Keep 'em coming girls!

Raleigh, North Carolina has a nice ring to it, don't you think?