Hollywog's Pond

Today I have discovered something: I do not want to go to law school and become a lawyer.

While disappointing (it kinda sounded like fun), I think it is a positive step forward in my life. I have struggled with finding a career that seemed to match my interests and future goals. My main issue is this: at what level do your hobbies and interests need to play into your job? Is it way enough to work a job for the cash and live on the side? It seems that if this is the case there is a lot of time spent not living. Or can I find happiness in a job well done regardless of the type of work; is that satisfaction enough?

Here's what I know:
1. I ~less than three~ learning. My mind has to be intrigued and occupied.
2. My life must be organized and my brain functions analytically.
3. I need to be able to support myself; I do not like to rely on others for basic needs.
4. I want to have a family in the next ten years. Big window, I know.
5. I have no idea what I want to do with a career. So far I am checking things off that I don't want to do which I feel is a step in the right direction, even if I don't know where that leads.

On other job fronts...
I let the deadline go buy for the teaching assistant in Spain dealio. I felt that I couldn't commit to a year overseas that goes from Jan to Jan (assuming of course that they would pick me). I think it would be difficult for me to find a job that would allow either for that temporary state of employment until departure, or for a lapse of a year and come back. Maybe there is a different program that I could work with, but I'm not sure that I'm cut out for teaching. I don't know that I could deal well with apathetic students and there are always apathetic students.

Until I come up with a better plan the path of least resistence will likely win out in the end. This path seems unfavorable whenever I am dealing with a jerk manager/co-worker or am not working. There will always be at least one jerk so that isn't the industry's fault. I don't think biotech has a higher proportions of jerks than any other arena. And being unemployed without another source of money is depressing and lame. Maybe the job isn't the problem.

ponder, ponder, ponder