Regression

Really rough week.  Day 22 was the Pit of Despair in more ways than one and I've been crawling my way out, little by little, every day.  Fatigue has led me to start taking naps again.  I know it's bad when the best I can do in a day is put on clean pajamas after showering in the late afternoon.  With all the couch time I've almost finished transcribing the recipes from Crazy Sexy Kitchen into Word docs.  Haven't decided yet if it is a bad idea to focus on recipes for foods I can't eat.  They're pretty healthy too but I've yet to come across one that I could employ currently.

Day 23 - 146.4 lbs
Improvement over Day 22 but still in the dumps.  Cheated again but not on such a grand scale.  No immediate effects from either indulgence other than fatigue.  I would appreciate some cause and effect here.  Any information at all would be helpful to determine how to move on from this phase of my life.

Day 24 - 146.0 lbs
Slight improvement again but feeling crummy.  Super fatigued.  Made yeast-free seeded buckwheat bread.  Yes, that's cheating too.  What can I say?  I'm weak when I'm in pain and feel rotten for days on end.  It was lovely with my puréed soup.

Day 25 - 145.6 lbs
Check-in day.  I admitted to cheating but didn't confess all of it.  I'd still like to know why the badness started on Day 22 that pushed me over the edge.  Was up until one o'clock in the morning with crazy nausea.  Sucking on some candied ginger eventually did the trick and I got some sleep.  Made chocolate pudding with avocados, banana (ran out of avocados), dates, vanilla, and cocoa powder.  Mind blowing amazing.  I love my blender.

Day 26 - 144.8 lbs
My assignment (punishment) is to keep a diary again of what I eat and symptoms.  And go back to broth if feeling crummy.  Or just the rehydrated supplement mix.  Ugh.  Doubly sad day because when I went to have my daily avocado ration I realized that my Costco avocado pile hadn't softened at all since purchase because they were rotten.  All of them.  Super firm and gray inside.  Almost shed a tear.

Day 27 - 144.6 lbs
The sun is back after our thunderstorms and cloudy week so I'll be able to get back to my ten minute lay out.  I really did miss it during this last week.  I like to imagine that I'm solar powered and it charges me as the warmth spreads over my limbs, making its way to my core.  If only my fair skin could handle more than 10 minutes!  It's farmer's market day so I get to have some human interaction.  Best day of the week.  Here's hoping today will be better than yesterday for symptoms and I don't have to have broth for dinner.